Emotion!

From the scene happened these days , are my self too sensetive or people around me really speaking arggesively ? why do i always feel there is offensive word around me ? am i not enought sleep ? am i think too much ? or maybe this maybe that ? LOL im so confussing .

but nvm de i can still hander this problem ! hehe...

ok now ther is a latest , i think i found the 1 which i got almost the similar "feel" with OJ 1 . but itz a good news ? yeah of cause , but actually i when i happy about this on the other hand i am sad , full of sadness ! well as i know , im poor , no cash , no car , no credit card ... XD... i know i know , love is not calculate by all these bull-shit , but did u think carefully again? if u did u shall know that atleast 2 things i mention ther is very important ! u cant denied it . don talks about me , talks about her then , well i don actually know her in person juz get her little bit details from my college fren who know her . so the conclusion is , she got imacbook , got nintendo Wii, got this got that , ok ok the point is she is rich i guess . so let's calculate , if we both together will it be happy or pain?
IF --->she = happy
me = happy first , later pain
ELSE IF --->she = ok we tolerance
me = happy of cause , but later also pain
ELSE --->she = pain
me = 200% pain
END IF

so , from the IF statment we can conclue that whatever she feel all i got on the last is also painful ending . hmm ... so my guess is right ! XD... well maybe is juz not the time for me , so juz wait and see !
but if thing do happen in well progress , i will say " I DO"

knows Nothings...

This time i really have to put all my effort into my study !.... but of cause, same as usual ,say is always easier , promise is always make to be broken . i cant effort to fail any subject again , i must not ! i shall know i have no that money and time to be wasted ! i 'm not a rich guy , i'm not a prince , i cant do whatever i want as others do . my line is very different with others , i may no compare with others. where is my own self again! y am i thinking about comparing again , i say that i will get whatever i want with my own ability . but seem lik my ability are none , so i get nothing =_=.

there are 2 more week to my mid-term exam , i hav to score in all four subject i taken . but till now , i can only hardly understands the Visual Basic 6.0 and statistic . Visual basic is about designing a GUI program so i guess i still can done abit . Statistic , WOW , formula and formula and formula , oh ya , some will be given to us but those hard thing , think yourself pls! in class i can do , but whats happen after class ? hmm....

wondering y ther is 2 subject missing? oh , did i miss something ? hell ya! i haven mention about the 2 most difficul subject , and here they are the all u can get is C++ Programming and what the hack Critical Thinking Skill . ya critical thinking skill or i call it as CTS is all about remember , remember and remember . haha but my memory are suxxx. sometime i do think that its i have a smaller brain then other ? or its my brain growing on the wrong part of my body!? haha i do think this kind of wasting time things . ok back to CTS , and i can tell u this really do twist ur brain !

the final stage , C++ PRO , hey sounds lik easy man what so hard about , its just about a C and + and + what u noob! hell yeah , i do think this when i saw my sister studying the IT subject few year ago , i was thinking is it that hard ? ya the book is HUGE but . haha now i finally feel myself how hard is it ! yeah!!! i have already study i think about 6 weeks for this subject and today LAB class exercise , HO , HO , HO , i can even write a goddam newbie super-easy mode program . nice done baby ! i myself don actually know the problems , i only know for me it was a GOD-ONLY-MODE program . well i guess this is the conclusion from my life-style-formula which is
Morning = go class , if not sticked with my computer
Afternoon= hanging around in college , sticked with my computer , sleep
Night= sticked with my computer , do abit just a litter bit housework
hehe , nice plan guy u did it!

okok i promise i will change my lifestyle allright then? ( was'n u say promise is make to be broken?)

W.H.Y

• WHY i cant study on my own without other ppl ask me to or a day before exam
• WHY i cant make reading a hobby
• WHY i have nothing that can compete with other ppl
• WHY i cant control myself from sticking with the computer
• WHY i cannot do whatever i want
• WHY i have to always be a loser to other
• WHY other ppl always look me as a Joker
• WHY my attitude is so childish
• WHY i'm so useless
• WHY i'm so stupid
• WHY i always feel alone when im in college
• WHY ...( many more) ...

hmm... this blog is actually a secret or a place to let me write whatecer bullshit around ... is juz my feeling place here , therefore i din let other ppl to know about that... y ? em... i don actually know ... haha... juz a nice sweet place to let me write something about my feeling, my life , thing happened around ... well and something juz for fun ....

our great voice luciano pavarotti had dead ... sad for the world ...

ps.(i guess u are the only 1 reading XD)

first time...

first time i c my father so mad about me ... i know that i hav class next day , but i cant stop myself , i decided to went out with them , so im not blaming anyone it is my own responsible ... my father take back the cheque which was my college fee... he ask me to go and find a job to work on it since im not care for mine study ... many is because my father dare me to giv him back the cheque , ( usually ppl dare me and i really do it although it is a mad things) ... i giv back him the cheque ... is this for real ? i really hope not but if my father really tired about this i guess i hav no choice , i don wan to let him worry anyway but i ... cant hold myself!.... sad

kremlin dusk

nice song by utada hikaru ...^_^

god of war II

oh yeah~~.... i finally finish the ps2 game god of war 2 .... it is actually my first time to finish a game !.... i really feel happy with it ... i hav use 3 week of time to finish it .... yeah some might say: omg , i can use 1 day to done tat man ... =_=... i know i know , my fren did tell me this since i play for the 2rd week ... hell yeah but i did it ...
haha... after i finish this game my feeling dam fine , and is lik im back ! im normal again i guess ... hahah....
hmm.... i guess how long will i need to beat the titan mode?... oh wat am i waiting for .... fighting with kratos now !!! ahhhh .... Im The God Of War !!.... killling spreed ~~

wat is happening to me... i hav no idea....

is been awhile i breakup wif my first gf ... but it din gave me a big impact ... i just wonder y im being so weird these day ... is not lik myself ... hmm...
this happen since i finish wathcing a taiwan drama ... ya... the drama is sad ... but i don remember ther is any other drama i watched back then giv me this feeling ... maybe im too affected but the scene inside but i feel so weird ... is just not my self ...
ok ... maybe i have too much of god damned holiday ... and im too free so i think too much ... well... but i somehow quite lik the "new" me ... y ?... maybe this is the dream me ... i din talk much ... i din talk stupid things... i act ' cool ' XD... hmm ... my fren saw me act cool then he reply say don act cool plss.... cause he don lik ... people hav to live wif his own life ... so be urself ... haha... can i?