a long night~

is this the final moment i had with her? well, i already told myself to let it go if i dint success last night, but until now, i still couldn't let go. i finally realized how much pain i gave her, i finally realized how stupid am i , and i finally realized that when i said i want to change but which i dint really do it. i told her,how much i love her, its my dearest true heart, and she knows, but she just dont know how to accept me back after all the events/things happened between us. she as well told me about tat "guys" who is actually trying to approach her as well. i do not what him to be with tat guys seriously! i dont want ! i dislike him, although anyone can say tat im just not willing because i lose to him. from every expects, i seems to have lose if compare, and what my last weapon is my true heart. but unfortunate, only with this is not going to make us together, i got to make changes towards myself, armed up myself, atleast for now she is still single, n i do stand a chance if i had did it. i loves her so much, i would really do whatever she wants for her. therefore, this is the time to show how faithful i am that love her. i will make changes to myself, for her, for me, for us to be together. i love her with my dearest heart, i do not want to make that night as our finals night together, i want to be with her forever and ever, or at least until either of us falls. it was really a long long night, but i had a good time chatting with her, i feels so comfortable, so natural being with her. for this time, i had written down all the points she want me to change, i will do my best to be a better person and the perfect husband for u evelyn. i love you evelyn, i hope u give me some times. 我下定决心了!要勇敢爱你，就要为你改，为我们的未来，我相信我可以做的很好的. 谢谢你，和我谈了一整个晚上。筱微，我爱你！