i have no idea what i want actually, im a dreamers, i have a lots of dream , but i dont really work hard to make it happen, i just wait for the lucks to come and drop upon my head. when the lucks dint came, i will just say:" im not good for this i stop working".
i seriously have nothing good in me, i couldn't make my parents proud of me, i couldn't make evelyn feels proud to hold my hand and walk together. i am just a loser, who doesn't learn from the past lesson whereas i become worst than before. i dont really know who i am right now, i dont really know what im capable of, i dont know what can i do, i am just so noob and even worst LAZY!
i couldn't compare to anyone around me , they all just looks so amazing in their own ways, and me? i just looks like a dumb ass who jokes around and never serious.
i hate this feeling, in the world of comparison, i have no choice but to compare myself to other as well, even with my good friends, like JB aka Jason sue, he is working with her mom, and he is amazing, he got the leadership talents born with him, i am so envy for that. he is my brother, is like my real big brother, and seriously, he lead me when we were in secondary, without him, i could have lost myself and have no idea where am i gonna be.
another is JiaQian, he is very good in computing skill, compare to me , i feels sorry for myself to have so little computer knowledge when im the one who start to study computer course. seriously i have no idea about the computer, hardware or software also. i wonder why i choose computing course when i dont even know how to fking do reformat for a computer before
well, im actually suppose to be rushing the assignment now, n just a sudden emotion that caught me here @_@ perhaps, its the moody weather from this morning until now that make me feels down. so enough break now, continue with the assignment now ! u still have a mountains of works to be done MR.TJ! let's go go go !
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